Two Love Poems

Love Me

You said you love me and I do believed
for no one ever loved me this way
I even turned my back on friends
for I only listen on what you say.

You cared for me with all your might
for no one ever dared to try
I trusted you more than anyone else
for I knew, with you, I'll never cry.

We always wanted to see each other
for we always miss each arms so bad
I thank God with all my heart
for you're the man I always had.

The Joy of Loving You
The moment I saw you
I knew that my dream has come true.
The dream of loving you
So my days would never be blue.

The way you hold my hands
Makes me happy when we’re together.
The happiness that I wish
Would be always and forever.

The warmth of your presence
Gives me a loving feeling of joy.
The joy of loving you
As long as I live, my dearest boy!

I wrote these poems when I was still in college (if I can remember it right) in 1989. I was madly as in crazy in love with a schoolmate who is two years senior of me.

I was still in my first year then, when I met him. I was invited by a classmate to join a student volunteers’ organization where he is one of the officers. I found him very nice and friendly. I felt that destiny is keeping us together because he is also an officer of the student government where one of my friends is his co-officer. During my free time, we hang out in the student government office, where we got the chance to know each other. We became good buddies and we used to go out as a group.

Little did I notice that I am falling in love with him. I kept on thinking about him every minute of the day as if that my world revolves on him. My day is incomplete when I don’t see him or talk to him. When I am in his office and no one is around I used to slip secret notes in his things. The more he became nicer and friendlier to me, the more I fall for him and every time I think of our situations, it is killing me softly. He has a girlfriend from the same college where I was, so when his girlfriend is around, I try to avoid him. This girl has an image in the school of a social climber and playgirl. Another thing is that every girl in the school had a crush on him because he is very handsome and popular. Thinking that I am not the only one who likes him is freaking me out. I cannot count the times when I am inside the restroom and hears some girls giggling over him when he passes by the corridor.

It was nearing our semestral break, when our school had an activity sponsored by the student government. As an active member of the organization I was involved in the activity. I was so excited because we are together and that was my first major involvement with the organization. We had a nice time working together, and what makes me more excited is that his girlfriend was not there. It was then my most unforgettable moment when he told me something that I have wanted him to say. He told me he likes me.

“I already have him in my life but I am not in his.”, that was our situation for two weeks. We secretly date together. When we had a chance to talk about our situation, I asked him to just choose between me and the other girl. Unexpectedly, he chose the other girl. Later that I learned that his girlfriend has been telling everyone that she is dying of leukemia after she knew what was going on between me and her boyfriend. And I thought that was her only way of keeping him. She was really that desperate but if she only knew how it tore me apart. He can’t leave his girlfriend because of her “situation”. After a month, they broke up. Maybe he learned that she was only pretending to be sick. But actually, she is. She is sick in the head! I didn’t talk to him since then even if we had a chance.

After they broke up, I was still secretly wishing that he would ask me to give our relationship a second chance. But I realized that he is not the man who is worth of my love and I don’t deserve someone who would not fight for me. After a month, he had a new girlfriend who is an evening student. Though obviously with his charm, he can easily get a new girl. The girl was the exact opposite of his former girlfriend.

I heard from a friend that he had a number of girlfriends before he settled down. Good for him!

If he can only read this, I want him to know that I wrote these poems for him.